God's kind of love through Me

Thank You Daddy...for Your faithfulness.
Faithfulness to Your word & promises.
Yes I was a mess, yes I'm not perfect
and I now know I am nothing without You!
For it was when I was in the darkness that
Your light shone on me so bright.

out of the darkness of my heart,
You poured Your love, forgiveness,
patience, perseverance, endurance
and all that I needed to get out of the tunnel.

when all my hope was nothing but despair,
You gave me a hug
letting me know You would never leave nor forsake me.
when all friends and family rejected me, blamed & humiliated me
You took me in & called me your daughter.
You then bathed me, cleansed me and made me new again.
You taught me Your word & assured me
wisdom, peace, rest, & victory over my enemies

and when You finally said: I love you...I knew for certain
it was true 'cause of Your actions. Daddy I love You
not for what You do but for Your very genuinity, it makes
me whole & Your love perfects me.

rendzweni ra hina misaveni

 hi va hundzi emisaveni
 ku hava lexi ku nga xa hina
 hambi ku ri vana, hambi ku ri vanghana
 hambi ku ri varhandziwa va hina

 mintirho, timali kumbe
 tindlu leti hi ti vitanaka
 makaya ya hina - a hi swa hina
 hinkwaswo; hi khomisiwile swona
 swa xinkadyana

 u nga ti vutisa u ku:
 'swaku swi ta endla yini?
 kumbe: xikongomelo ku ri yini?
 kumbe u ku: hi tikarhatela yini
 loko swi ri tano?

 hi vahundzi emisaveni, ina swi tano!
 Yehovha wa hi khomisa vana
 leswaku hi va hlayisa, a hi khomisa
 vanghana leswaku hi dyondza rihanyu
 hi vona a tlhela a hi khomisa varhandziwa
 leswaku hi ta kota ku vona ku matimba
 a hi ya hina...

 eka hinkwaswo, mhaka 'yikulu i ku
 N'wi tiva, na ku ka hi nga rivali
 ku N'wi xixima, ku N'wi tsundzuka
 eka swiyimo hinkwaswo leswi hi nga ti
 kumaka hi ri eka swona maendzweni ya hina
 laha 'misaveni
 

your true colours

I know your true colours
they shone so bright in my sleeping
face I was almost blinded
when I awoke this morning

I saw your true colours
when I wasn't looking
at night they were so bright
and very colourful I wondered
if it was really you

It was your true colours that
helped me realise my strongest
points; my best abilities.
As I struggled to get up from
my sick bed

that's when I really knew you
that's when I really saw you for
who you are
it was then that I embraced my weakest points
for the realisation of the real you
gave me the REALITY of standing alone
in my rainy, darkest, stormy days!!

)$C

My love for you
killed me; left me chopped
into pieces, smashed to ashes
left me empty &eventually
I disappeared into thin air!

I had to find myself
and when I did
my heart was just an
empty hole...
couldn't remember who
I was. My name made no
sense to me, wasn't sure if
I belonged!

You left me scarred
you left me bruised..
with nothing but the fear
to live, the fear to love again.
You ruined me, wrecked my
feelings into meaningless pieces

You made sure I never existed
again in the name of love..that
as far as love is concerned I'm
never there__Yet I love you still!!

making that choice!

i held myself hostage;
the fear of having to
be held accountable for
what would be, kept me
locked in these
psychological locks

i feared for years
to be responsible,
scared of what might
have been had i decided to . . .

i was held hostage
by the fear of being
held liable of what
could be should
i decide to . . .

and now i fear that
if i don't get out
of these boxes, i'll
forever be a hostage
of my fears

i refuse not to choose
i choose to cast my
fears into a box where
they can no longer
hold me hostage

 I choose to make that choice!

Mash's ego

so your mother is a freak right
your grandmother is by her side
and i'm on my own
while you still decide

i have no reason to fight
i shoudn't even dare to. .
i'm as i am with
nothing to say

I love you, I really do
you got me addicted
you got me hooked
only to let me hang myself

Mash i loved u
and you let me. . only
to leave me standing here
in the rain by myself

with all that you gave me
everything i went through in
your name;ni vuyela ndzhaku
not with shame but the
pride of ever truly loving you

in my head,in my heart
underneath my skin
my soul will forever be with you
my spirit wil forever be reminded of you
and that's a promise!

growing old!

it's when years start adding
days becoming few
and one starts living life fully

when challenges begin
to entice your brains
that without them life
is boring . . .

it is then that one
has grown; then that
one has become . . .
it's called growing old!